Thank God for my wife! The invitation arrived in midsummer. Would I take part in a seven-day conservative study group in Israel put on by the Herzl Institute? We would tour strategically, politically, and religiously important places in Israel while having meetings with scholars, journalists, educators, politicians, and religious figures—Jewish and Christian.
The Holy Land! The place known as “the fifth Gospel.” A no-brainer, yet…I hesitated. It was complicated. The dates matched the second week of classes at my university. Accepting would mean rearranging my academic schedule, getting backed up on administrative work, and complicating our already crazy family schedule. It would mean long flights, navigating airports and borders, and adjusting to an eight-hour time-zone differential.
Reader, I have made two decisions in my life about which I have no regrets. One was entering the Catholic Church. The other was marrying my wife. What happened next demonstrates why the second is true after twenty-five years.
Despite the burden it would place on her, Cathy was adamant: “You have to take this! It’s the trip of a lifetime.”
I took it. It was.
Were the complications I imagined about this trip merely, well, imaginary? No, sadly real. The second leg of my trip, from Chicago to Krakow, Poland, kept getting delayed, prompting increasingly frantic messages to the travel agent. By the time I navigated passport control in Poland, I realized the connection gate was at the end of the terminal. I dashed madly, but I made it. Murphy’s Law is harsh, but Divine Providence is good.
Upon arrival at David Ben Gurion Airport in Tel Aviv on Saturday night, I was tired but ready for action. Upon making it through passport control without a hitch, I got a call from the driver who would take me to Jerusalem. I had been told Israelis dress casually, so the older man in shorts, T-shirt, and flip-flops who greeted me at the meet-up site amused but did not surprise me.
Though it was past sunset, the sky over the Mediterranean was a gorgeous kaleidoscope of colors. Just as with the Gulf Coast sky in East Texas, my mind instantly went to Psalm 19: “The heavens are telling the glory of God; and the firmament proclaims his handiwork.” Like East Texas yet again, Tel Aviv is stuffy, but my driver’s preference for open windows heightened the effect. Spirit, like its Greek (pneuma) and Hebrew (ruach) forms, is literally breath or wind. If the sky was telling God’s glory, I wanted to be open to the Holy Spirit in the Holy Land.
At the Hotel Dan, I connected with most of my fellow travelers for a drink and some nourishment before bed. Fr. Benedict Kiely, the president of Nasarean.org, a charity for persecuted Christians (especially in the Middle East), whom I had met before, said for the first of several times that what he desired for all of us was openness to what God wanted out of us on that trip.
One of the other travelers, a distinguished journalist and policy scholar, observed that he wasn’t sure how ready he was for it. As in our ordinary lives, none of us are. Taking on the mind of Christ, with its readiness to say in all circumstances, “Not my will, but thine,” is the work of a lifetime.
The political and cultural side of the trip—the meetings and lectures—was an education in full. History, law, technology, Israeli diplomacy, education, and economics were all covered in vivid detail by extraordinarily interesting speakers. Yet, for all the this-worldly aspects, to which our group of Catholic journalists, academics, and think tankers were deeply attentive and for which we were grateful, most of us still considered the trip (and often talked about it thus) as a “pilgrimage” first and foremost.
We were walking where Salvation History was accomplished.
Our first tour stop was the Mount of Olives overlooking the city of Jerusalem. This was the place to which King David first fled when his son Absalom was attempting to dethrone his father. This was where Our Lord went, “as was his custom,” as Luke tells us, to pray and to teach. It is where He went before drawing away into the Garden of Gethsemane at its base. It is there that He wept over Jerusalem. It is there, Matthew tells us in chapters 24 and 25, that He preached to the Disciples about the coming persecutions, the signs of the end of the age, the astonishing sign of the Son of Man, and the judgment of all the nations.
Our Lord’s apocalyptic sermon there was certainly no accident. The Prophet Zechariah foretold God’s standing on that mount to fight the nations and was believed to have predicted that the Resurrection of the Dead would begin there. Hence the thousands of Jewish graves we saw as we looked down toward the valley between us and the City of David: they read the prophets.
If, as T. S. Eliot says, “In my end is my beginning,” a first stop at the Mount of Olives was perfectly appropriate. We began where the end of this world begins.
In “The City of David,” we saw the Pool of Siloam, in which the man blind from birth washed after Jesus healed him. We also saw the location that many archaeologists believe to be David’s palace. While still disputed, recent archeological discoveries of 10th-century B.C. goods and decorations support the thesis. As our tour guide, the irrepressible Cuti Ben David, said, modern denials of biblical history keep running into problems as the very stones cry out: “The Bible keeps standing up to say, ‘I’m real.’”
So, too, with ancient Shiloh, the capital of the people of Israel for 369 years before David established Jerusalem. Recent discoveries support the biblical account and identify the likely location of the Tabernacle, where the priest Eli heard childless Hannah’s distraught prayer and Samuel, the son she bore, heard the call of God.
It was on yet another hill that many heard the comfort and call to unhindered service of God that Hannah and Samuel received. The traditional spot of the Mount of the Beatitudes was a place of calm and beauty. A few boats were on the Sea of Galilee when we visited. They were quiet enough that one could imagine Simon Peter and Andrew fishing in them.
Down the shore a little bit, in Matthew the Evangelist’s hometown, Capernaum, we saw the house believed to be Peter’s and ruins of a synagogue that perhaps dates to the fourth century A.D. Beneath the latter is evidence of an older synagogue, perhaps the one in which Jesus taught and exorcised a demon-possessed man. Though Capernaum was described as our Lord’s “own city” in Matthew’s Gospel and became His center of operations after leaving Nazareth, it was also the place he condemned for its lack of faith—along with nearby Chorazin and Bethsaida. A potent warning.
Perhaps the most moving places in the Holy Land were the underground ones. Mass close to where Christ was born in a subterranean chapel underneath the Church of the Nativity complex brought to mind Chesterton’s chapter in The Everlasting Man, “The God in the Cave.” He wrote that “in the riddle of Bethlehem it was heaven that was under the earth.”
As it was in the beginning of His earthly life, so too in the end. In the riddle of Jerusalem, life seemed buried beneath death. In the Church of the Holy Sepulcher, believed since the fourth century to be the correct location of the events of the Atonement, one climbs the stairs to the place believed to be Calvary. Lower and in another part of the complex is Christ’s tomb. Last year, archeologist Francesca Stasolla led an excavation finding significant evidence that this location is likely the right one—Catholic traditions often stand up to say, “I’m biblical and historical.”
Kneeling in the tomb with my hands on the cold stone slab on which Life Himself somehow experienced Death, I found myself both overwhelmed by what was present and thinking of Fr. Benedict’s words about letting God lead me. Can I, as our Lord did, say, “Thy will be done” in my own life?
Walking where Jesus walked, seeing the sky He saw, and touching the very stones He saw was an unbelievable experience. Those unsurpassable events in “the land called holy” achieved the redemption of the world. Yet, even if I cannot be there all the time, I can know Jesus in the Church through the Scriptures, in which He speaks, and the Eucharist, in which He touches me directly and gives me His very life.
Wherever we live, we are called to be holy people doing works of love that make visible Christ’s redemption. If only I let God’s will be done in my life, if only I accept my cross, and die to self in the hope of Christ’s resurrection, my own land can be called holy, too.
(Editor’s note: This essay is reprinted with the kind permission of The Catholic Spirit.)
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This was a wonderful story. I was fortunate that an opportunity came to me in early 2019 to visit the Holy Land with my parish. I never thought of it as a place I wanted to go, the middle east holding bad associations for me after my husbands death on 9/11. I was recently returned to the church and saw the travel bulleting announcing a trip in our church lobby. Something drew me to say yes to this unlikely destination. The middle east was fortunately between wars at the time and so it seemed as safe as it would ever be to do this. A friend, coping with a personal loss of her own, decided to accompany me, and off we went. We saw so many beautiful places touching the life of Jesus, including the church of the Holy Sepulchre which holds his tomb, the Via Dolorosa, the site of the crucifixion, etc . At each location I kept hoping for a moment when Jesus would feel especially present, but it did not come. As nearly every location we saw was FULL of tourists, thoughtful or peaceful personal moments were hard to come by.
At one point we went to see the church of the Pater Noster. Adorning the walls are versions of the Our Father Prayer written in many languages, both common and obscure. Probably hundreds of them. At one point we were standing in an ancient stone room of no particular inspiration– old, blank stone walls. Construction and an archeological dig were in process. But our Arab Christian guide told us that just below us, blocked by a plexiglass wall, was believed to be the place where Jesus had taught his Apostles the Our Father. We looked down on the site through the glass. Oddly, given the usual press of tourists we generally encountered, the room in which we stood was empty except for our own tour group. Our pastor suggested since we had the room to ourselves for the moment, we take the opportunity to pray the Our Father in unison.
This was one of the first prayers any catholic child learns. It is well worn, and often said with little thought. I had said it myself a million times. The group began to pray together. And I was not more than a few words into it when I found myself losing my composure. My throat tightened and tears began to come. I struggled to regain my emotional footing as the rest of the group finished praying and walked out of the room. I was the last to leave. Outside I found our pastor, taking the head count. I told him what had happened and suggested I had no idea what had happened to me in that un-inspirational room while reciting a prayer I could say in my sleep. He thought for a moment and said, ” Well, you never know when it’s going to hit you.”
It was probably the most meaningful moment of the entire tour for me and has colored my life ever since. Because at that moment I felt a real sense of Jesus being present, and being real. To ME. A totally unearned and undeserved moment that I still cherish.
I pray for peace in the Holy Land so others can safely travel there to see its beauty and have their heart touched as I did.
LJ:
Beautiful. Thank you.
I’ve been out of the country numerous times in my life – perhaps 25+ occasions to Europe and a similar number of times to Guatemala and other countries in this hemisphere. I’ve been to Israel only once and it was my most memorable trip.
I recall with most fondness, humility and appreciation my preaching at Mass with the French group I was with a homily in the Church of the Nativity in Bethlehem. Since we were there during Holy Week I remember being among the clergy for Holy Thursday Mass at the Ecole Biblique with the Dominicans. I remember the Good Friday liturgy with the Benedictine Sisters in Jerusalem and the Easter Vigil at the monastery of Abu Gosh outside Jerusalem. And being at Christ’s tomb on Easter morning was unlike any Easter I ever celebrated. Equally as memorable was our stay at a kibbutz in the Negev desert where in prayer we prepared ourselves for Holy Week. Every October 7th I think that it could have been us who were slaughtered by Hamas as we defenselessly prayed in the Israeli desert.
Good to recall the endearing memories about Holy Land that stays with one even years afterwards , including the wonder and gratitude that so much of it is still there for us to cherish in spite of all the troubles and turmoil the land and people has been through.
Tomorrow – Feast of St.Albert and Oct 7 – Feast of Our Lady of Rosary . Two rather painful memories of our visit with a tour group was the attitude of scorn that our Jewish guide had – esp. at Mount Carmel , towards the Carmelite priest in charge of the gift shop , as well as towards the Carmelite history of the place ; that same attitude also in narrating history of Acre .
Looking back, now wonder if tour groups can listen instead to good recorded talks that the guide too can listen , to bring a better light about the related truths from Catholic side .
Meanwhile, our sorrow in seeing such attitudes when united to that of our Mother whose sorrow is ocean times more than that of Rachel at birth of Benjamin – to help those who do not love her yet.
Our many similar occasions in daily lives too , including that of sorrow over what many seem to be missing – of some of the perceived good things of old about The Liturgy . That too can be offered up for similar intent . Mother Church needing to bring many of varied and poor nations under her wings, made changes.
The ( external ) glory that seems tarnished to an extent – ? to be made up through charity of heart . The turmoil that manifested soon after the changes in Liturgy – likely that its fires were lit much before- including the injustice of race etc : and God alone to know how much worse things could have been if not for the Council esp. with media influence as the flood waters of the dragon that is still with us .
Lord preparing His people to live more in His Holy Divine Will internally – to join Adam in our every breath to repeat his first words to The Father – ‘Love You, Love You ‘ & torrents of waters to flow East and West !